Posts Tagged ‘drama’

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Okay so I’m back. Thanks for the withdrawal-induced lovin’. So things have been a tad rough lately, thus the “drama” and “quitting” business.
However, things are looking up. Well except for the insurmountable amount of schoolwork I am facing in the next two-ish weeks. And that whole Christmas gifts for loved ones deal, gah, some people are just SO demanding. And the fact that I like at least 8 hours of sleep every night. And my dog likes to be walked every day. And my Starbucks card is down to $6!!
Nah, it’ll be okay, honestly. The Lord has been teaching me so much about focusing on what I can do to serve the ones I love and what it means to love Him.
Last night dad and I went to see Handel’s Messiah performed. I love the words, “For unto us a Son is given” and “I know that my Redeemer liveth.” I thought about all the lives touched by this beautiful piece of music. Everyone singing the words, the musicians, the soloists, and the precious souls sitting in the audience. What do they think about these phrases and melodies hanging in the air? I really think that music is how I feel the Holy Spirit the strongest.
I can remember listening to Handel’s Messiah during the holiday season for as long as I can remember. In fact, last night I told my dad that, for some reason, while listening to the music, I kept picturing Playmobil people. Most likely this is because I was setting up my Playmobil dollhouse for Christmas while Messiah was playing in the background. Ah. I just love it! That piece of music really is the essence of Christmas.
Just some thoughts for the season. What is your favorite holiday tradition?
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Hey guys. I’d like to say that my hiatus was due to my concentration on my studies but it was not. Yes life is busy. duh. A lot of crazy stuff has been going on in the AT program of late. Honestly, sometimes I wish I had a hidden camera so I could turn the footage into a reality show and make MILLIONS! But that would be wrong. And bad. So I guess that’s out. Honestly all the drama has totally thrown me for a loop. I’ve come to know and view my classmates as family, as I spend more time with them than my biological family. My classmates are great sources of entertainment, laughter, intellectual stimulation and faith sharpening. So when something unexpected happens, well, it takes me a while to recover. I have to say this, forgive me, but I feel like “my peeps is on the fritz!” (name that show. ahem, C!) ha. Just when I’ve recovered from the last doozy, we’re on to the next. I’m really REALLY trying hard to stay positive because it’s honestly ALL I HAVE when it comes to coping with ALL OF THIS! When positivity is out, I GOT NOTHING. As I told my brother on Monday, I feel like I am treading water, with my head barely above the surface. The only thing keeping my head up is my attitute and new motto of “let it go.” So when a classmate comes along and starts complaining or freaking out, I go under. It’s not just that negativity breeds negativity, it’s that it obliterates my survival mechanism. As much as I wish and pray for my classmates to stay positive and to be able to let things go, I am also realistic about this. I know there will be negativity, I know there will be low spirits, but I wonder if they realize that their continued angst is drowing the rest of us. And by “rest of us” I mean “me.”
So I continue to do my best to stay upbeat, even when it gets thrown back in my face (thankfully the baked goods aren’t reduced to the same fate, ouch). It’s harder to move past the continual complaining but I’m trying. I probably should learn to deal better as I don’t really think things will get better until the program is over.
I hope this little essay didn’t portray me as the perfect nursing student who’s always positive, never complains and never EVER picks at her classmates. I mean I AM, but that wasn’t the point of this post. JUST KIDDING. NO, SERIOIUSLY. I honestly feel bad because I know I’ve most likely caused others to fall or “drown”. Which is why I’m doing my darndest to stop. In conclusion, not only am I learning EVERYTHING ABOUT NURSING EVER IN 12 MONTHS, I’m always learning to be a human. But hopefully a people-loving, Christlike human. Whew.
So that’s what I’ve got for almost 3 months under my belt. WHEN THE HECK IS THAT BREAK! SHOOT!

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