Archive for January, 2006

So I was journaling last night, trying to make the most of my night alone (or trying to make the best of it, whichever ;)) and after I spilled my heart, I went back and read what I have written in there so far. Close to New Year’s I was overcome with the hope of change and new things and this is what I wrote:

Confessions of a 22-year-old
~ I wish that I had spent LESS time being concerned with what I look like and what others thought of me and MORE time appreciating OTHERS and looking at their hearts
~ I wish I drank tea more often (I have started doing that…wahoo!)
~ I wish I gave hugs more often
~ I wish I’d stop worrying and realize God has a plan and it’s better than mine
~ I wish I would READ MORE and watch t.v. LESS
~ I wish I was less fearful and intimidated
~ I wish I knew more people
~ I wish I did everything out of love
~ I wish I spent more time just BEING and ENJOYING
~ I wish I played more LOUD, ENERGETIC games
~ I wish I was more ladylike
~ I wish I volunteered more
~ I wish I gardened
~ I wish I spent less time talking and more time listening
~ I wish I spent less time mooning (that’s right MOONING, and not THAT kind of MOONING!) over boys and more time finding out who I AM and BEING who I’ve found
~ I wish I wanted to be more like me and less like anyone else (except Jesus of course!)
~ I wish I spend less time reading about “celebrities” and more time getting to know real people
~ I wish I took better care of myself in all aspects

A year from now, I hope to have changed these things, it’s not about regret, it’s about hope and the future! More importantly when I’ve lived more than a quarter of my life I want to look back and have no confessions!!
That’s all!

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So I was researching flights and I totally found one from new york to dublin for $535!! WAHOO! So hopefully Cecilia’s rents will agree to it and I can book our tickets to EUROPE! I’m so excited! It’s real now…yayayayayayay!!!
I’m really happy about being proactive! wahoo

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new colors and a new picture..wanna know why, because i’m supposed to be studying for the MCAT right now and i really don’t wanna. I know I’m so gonna freak out when it’s a week away…AHHHH!
In other, non-freaky news, life is good. This week was so wonderful, though kinda crazy. God’s so good to me, seriously! I haven’t been overwhelmed about my future lately which is nice, cause i was definitely losing sleep over it before.
I really want to work on my relationship with the Lord before I graduate. If I can’t be faithful in an environment that is so nurturing to my relationship with Him then what will i do in the “real world” where I don’t have chapel and Christians all around me? Thursday’s chapel was amazing, even though I sat in the back to get some homework done (i admit it, okay!), I could feel the spirit as soon as we started singing, which I LOVE! And Shane was so great. I really admire how he spoke, like telling jokes so we’d be drawn in at the beginning and then moving on to the serious stuff. That video made my cry..I want to love people like that too…and maybe, just maybe, I’ll be able to be a doctor that helps kids like that. I sure hope so. Seriously who needs the money and noteriaty when you could be helping people like Jesus did? Something to think about at least!

ps the picture is to show you where my current “metro” is..AHHH!! If you haven’t noticed my metro is where I WISH I WAS! Sanibel, I am coming……

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Today I’m thankful for;

- the hot water bottle Cecilia gave me for Christmas (it stayed warm ALL night!)
- pants that give…ha
- sweet, deep sleep
- being in stats class when we got the email about graduation tickets, so I could reply quickly
- not having to touch the frog in physiology lab
- rice, yum
- bobby pins and dirty hair
- other people being a good mood
- a God that loves me no matter what, especially when I’m crabby!

that’s it!

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I’m loving this itunes gift certificate thing…one of the best presents I got this Christmas, THANKS HILLS FAMILY!!!! Anyhoo, while I’ve been shopping for songs to get, I remembered that my home church now puts up sermons as podcasts…I TOTALLY found them, so I’ve downloaded two and am working on my third! I’m so excited because it’s FREE, and I can keep up with WOLC!!! It’s such good teaching, I just can’t live without it! Hopefully they’ll do this for forever, so next year when I’m on the east coast, I can still listen to sermons in my downtime! How exciting am I?

I really want to watch “when a stranger calls” from good ole 1979, but I refuse to watch it alone, so if you’re up for scary movie (i don’t know how scary it actually is), CALL ME! Can’t do it tonight though cause I’m babysitting!!

Random fact of the day: My dad knew Nate Saint’s son. Nate Saint is one of the men portrayed in “The End of the Spear”…GO see it, I hear it is SOOO good!!

“Christianity is not an agenda, it is a romance.”

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P.S. Yeah, I kissed Chad Michael Murray in my dream! Let me just tell you, in case you had ever wondered, “Is Chad Michael Murray a good kisser?”…HE IS!!! haha

Needless to say, I LOVE DREAMING, because my love life is always better in dreams!!!!

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I had the BEST KISS OF MY LIFE two nights ago…I’m telling you earth-shattering, weak-kneed BLISS!!!

….too bad it was a dream, DANG IT!!

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isn’t she gorgeous? A - I totally stole this from your xanga…haha…send me more pics if you have them online!!!

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CONGRATULATIONS TO EUREKA SPRINGS’ NEW HOMECOMING QUEEN, MISS ASHLEY KNAPP!!! You should have been there. She looked so beautiful! I love that girl so dang much. A-if you’re reading this I LOVE YOU and am SO proud to call you my cousin.
YOU’RE THE SWEETEST GIRL ALIVE! I had a blast!

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Man, I’m tired. It is days like this that I wish I had a personal assistant…one day maybe!

Today in chapel (seems to be the topic of my xangas a lot lately), we had communion, it was wonderful. I love sitting in the front row for various reasons, but on communion days, it especially great because I get to people watch…while fervently praying, of course. As I people watched (while fervently praying), I was struck with how beautiful the body of Christ is. This school is full of wonderful individuals who come together to make the body. Trying to see people as Christ does is always a good idea. So if you are reading this and are a part of the body of Christ, you are beautiful and I appreciate you!! Thanks for being you.

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